Today just hurts.

I can't lie. It's been an awful two weeks. I'm having obsessive thoughts and feeling jealous, angry, and powerless. I've spent months examining my part and now I can't stop thinking about the ex's: those "how dare he" and "shame on him" futile thoughts. I need an anger and judgment lobotomy. I need my support payment which is two days late. I need a stiff drink. (Not really but I'd like one.) I need to let go. And I need to get rid of the five pounds I've gained over the holidays. Generally speaking, I am not an emotional eater (just an emotional drinker and pill popper). Lobotomy, liposuction and an injection of cash and I'd be good to go.